Musings for today
As defined in dictionary.com: an emotion or emotional perception or attitude: a feeling of joy; a feeling of sorrow, a feeling of…. “I don’t know what I’m feeling.”
Feelings can be good. Feelings can be not so good. What they are is exclusively yours, and no one has the right tell you what you are feeling is right or wrong, or deprive you of whatever feelings you are experiencing.
Grief begets every possible feeling, sometimes one at a time, sometimes all together. Sometimes you will know exactly what you are feeling. You will be clear and know exactly what step you need to take at that given moment to cope with what you’re feeling. Other times, you are blindsided by the depth of what you are feeling and won’t even know where to begin. Both are normal.
There are also times when you don’t know what you are feeling. That is normal too. You cry for no reason. You laugh for no reason. You feel just overwhelmed. No one told you it would be like this. Nothing prepared you for this. Everything is new, especially the feeling you get in your rib cage, like the laces on a corset being pulled tighter and tighter, until you think you can’t breathe. When this happens, slow down, inhale through your nose and slowly exhale through your mouth.
Just b-r-e-a-t-h-e. Then just b-r-e-a-t-h-e again.
